My lost friends

[Jack in the UK]

I have lost so many im just very down i spend my life on this site, just had to remember a few

Tom aged 4 my sons best friend
Charlie Kray (Brother to London Gangsters)
Noddy - Big Al - London Fireman
Ern - school pal died car crash cut head off
Brett Over Dose
Pete Over Dose
Chris shot dead 19 drug deal
John Car Crash
Pam old age - love you Pam you looked after me so much
Ang - love you to - cancer
Jayne and to your family i know you loved me

I miss you Jayne you saved my life many times when i was in Brixton as did your / my friends - when the knives and guns came out i knew i could get help just a telephone call away - thank you my special darlin is not enough i know i just could not see you go, i was distracught you know me the man ruled Brixton with an iron fist fair my very hard - just would never have coped - just as i cry now, im so lucky you daughter is wondeful just like her mother my friend from South London BRIXTON i saw Ob you bredren sis some time back she ran over the raod to kiss and cuddle me, not bad for a white guy - you know me know me b tone of skin bes bredren!


Yv - heart attack - im proud we went oput a few times

Ronnie and Reggie fr all you did for me - thank you

All the Fire Crews lost in the wold trade center Terry MANHATTON Hatton Guru

YOU i wount name in Washington GURU body getter, i know we as you do know just as the guys in the world trade center knew would die, the world will loose you soon, you stood on the Pentagon as it colapsed - you fire department cap is on my desk at work, just in your honnor!

My father who should be dead 8 times - Tony from Wimbledon

9 guys from Millwall Londons east end died on a gas explosion on the docks some 20 years ago i was a lad then

B died from explosion

PMP died drung chocked on vomit school friend

Sorry i cant go on

Love you all guys

Jack

 

[rikrak]

You scared me Jack when i read Sorry i cant go on and your name disapearing in a black background.

Hope you're feeling better today.

Henk

 

[Jack in the UK]

Thank you im fine - i just get very very down sometimes i miss my fiends, thats all.

I spend my life on this site and think of good old days, just get sad thats all, as i sit alone with my laptop and MrExcel for comany. All my family fast asleep ZZZZZZ!

Thats why i dedicate so much of my VBA to lost friends and my VBA has JACK all over it!! Some guys dont like it but the codes and formulas always work VBA will allow anything if your clearer about it

I just get sad normaly i dont say much but sometimes i get very down, thats all

Thank you - im fine i promise you that .

Thank you. Yes i feel a lot better after my post.

 

[Jack in the UK]

My original post says of Jayne from Brixton she lved on a hard South London - Lambeth Council estate i knew all her family and they knew me - you knwo my names not Jack they know me in the flesh - they are all from the Windies, and loved me for ME, and loved my famouse saying "ive had a hell of a day!" thats true as many attacks and guns and knives in Vietnam!! i used to call the palce Vietnam and say i would only do ONE tour 365 days i did 5 on the hop!

Jayne i knew for years and her sisters, they all loved me, your sister used to feed me when we worked together in teh office after Brixton was closed, she knew i was a little alone, friends are fine but i like my own space i work quite and alone, using my friends i can trust, i have a MASSIVE repertation, if theres troule I WILL SORT it and that i did. Friends helped me - a man had HIV aids [hundreds did back then, daily i dealt with them, nice guys very sad, VERY SAD, you try talking to the dying!!!] trying to stab me with a bloddy knife to lucky punch in the face and worse, Jayne only ever helpped me.

Like on this board im loved and hated - but i ruled BRIXTON, i knew who and what was happening no im never going to say that lot, i even had a local guy who i helpped who used to be my minder!!! he was mad, i intreduced Jayne to him, he lived arround the estate from he, SHE and her family never had any more trouble from crime - drug dealers NOTHING even the police stayed away - a very nice guy not to be crossed. I saw he many times he offered to put anyone who upset me in the sausage machine for me, i said ill let him know, one day Jayne visited me and he was visiting me. A guy offended me and Jayne - they left, i never saw they again, i still dont eat sausages to this day!

IS it a story of is it true you decide?

Jayne i was talking of you, a party is soon of old friends, i NEVER go - but i have requested a BAN on asking after Jack but i know friends of ours will be there, JAck will not - i have requsted that no one ask after me and attention be made in your honnor - and a glass be raied to you at JACKS request - just seems the very VERY least i can do, i wish i could do more, but you know me i never forget my friends, NEVER i have not seen you in 9 years sister 3 years, we spoke of you move to North London??? but some 3 years on i still miss you early.

Jayne as you see Jack very upset, a far cry from the violence i dealt with all day long for many years - please allow me to thank you from the heart from looking after my friends means so much to me, i was the lucky one.

Hey remember the time my boss got punched in the face, sorry should not laugh, but we fixed it simple, with Jack friend in the MASONS i add, that was a funny day the Police were in 3 times that day and even the horses, such fun i had fond days.

You stood up for me so many times, SO MANY TIMES, saying you never have had an issue with me.

Can i say>>?? I love you to, my friend

Please PLEASE sleep well

my real name ..... from BRIXTON everyone knew me, if one read this post they would know me from that address, the place i loved so so much, my home, my home

See you soon, my friend!!


>>> Tonight our friends celebrate riendship, tonight i have madesure you are cheered and a toast at my request, but i ahev made it totally clean my name is not to be mentioned ONLY yours, tonight is your. I never attend re unions you know i would not cope, but you also know i would depending on who went, you know if you and you family were there a picture would been see, you your husband children, sisters and family and some tall very smart white guy in there - yes i would be with my friends, such fun.

Tonight is yours, and only yours, we can enjoy or memories of Jack in trouble fighting it out and you saving my day and far more, i openly admit i would have been hurt amny times if you did not help me, or even dead! Hey how many times did Jack come close !!! Phew!



Jayne

 

[Jack in the UK]

My words mean little our friendship is strong
My thoughts are with you
Im here my friend

Jack

 

[Jack in the UK]

To all my friends i have made over the passed who have contacted me re their loss, my heart goes to you.

I will loose heavy in the comming year and ive friends to say good bye to, i do not expect to see them again as they do not i.

Let hope the powers to be produce peice not war in Iraq - the UK is asking the same guys to return some more that 10 and 11 years later.

Jack asks - lets all except and hope for peice, but sometimes it just dont work out.

Guys if i loose to many it will distroy me, lets hope not.

 

[Jack in the UK]

Hi Guys yu will know me im sure but i want to post:

Many guys hate me, most dont like my VBA as i have dedications in it, this will always continue as i feel on th time of posting.

I hate Christmas and ever worst detest New Years, go on hate me, i can live with that.

Jack dedicates this time 9.06 on New Years Eve to Thonas "Tom" Knight who died 3 years back today, and is covered in my VBA, Tom we all love you dearly - and miss you more than i can express.

Tom committed suicide on this day, i had the task of telling my eldest two sons there best buddy was dead, then they were 4 and 3, my youngest was born 4 days later and 3 day after his birth i took a 3 foot coffin and might it be white and fullof a tint lost life

I burnt it.

Thats what we do, right ? 150 people crying and screaming as Toms body moves towards the fire as a mark of the end, i never cried, i gave my word.

But lets et this straight - its distroyed me. Ask your self way i dont care.

Love me or hate me at least i know where i stand/

Yes Tom my best friend we talk of you so often, i bet your listening, i here you answer my questions.

I have my picture frame of my dead friends on my work desk i see 100 times a day, this has caused me nothing but trouble

Tom you see you are there with my sone on the first day of school with you other best friend

Also i am pictured with my partner, and my special friend, Charles Charlie Kray [ Brother of London gangsters the Kary Twins] all now dead.

My son Charlie takes his name from my friend, yes he is fully aware of the world and what its like as are all my children, and YES he knows hes named after my friend and what this freiend was all about.

Tom tonight is your, and ive been with you mum and dad several times this year and every year since.

Tom leave me know, to sit outside and cry and cry and cry untill im done - i dont give a ****!

All i have and done all i know thats a tad different - whats it all about??

Love or hate me - all i know is trust, and friendship, the rest is rubbish, Jack a friend to anyone who wants Jackas a friend

Tom - as the music sang by Eric Clapton, tears in heaven. We you there theres plenty there with you .

As the lyricks kill and cut me to peices - somehow i do not belong here in heaven.

And yes i will be looking for you if i ever arrive in HEaven on day, and the old gang can get back together and play all thouse games, like the water game at school! We know the rule dont we?

Tom ----

Please guys no PMs and no emails - unless you want to distroy me of cause

Tom take care buddy

 

[XL-Dennis]

Hi Jack,

I´m reading and I´m with You.

Take care MCM,

Dennis

 

[Jack in the UK]

CM XL-Dennis

Im fine i fell a lot better now thanks, todays been hard im fine - lot better, im find it helps, and keeps my friend with me

Thank you

JITUK

 

[Jack in the UK]

No comments guys I dedicate this post to such a brave man, deep in my heart – one I never knew

Michael Ragusa

Fire Department New York, died 11th September in the terror attacks.

I cry again as I type, so you get this rough as I felt and thought.

You cant give some religious burials if you don’t have a body part, simple facts. Michael did not have a body part no matter how small so only today the US has said a body part has ben found. But not from the World trade Centre, some guy has tracked and located a phial of blood donated for bone marrow if needed.

This guy tried to help and love or hate him, his blood will be buried some many MANY days, weeks, years later. This now means all WTC fire Fighters that died are buried, Michael was the last

His mother no happy can lay her loved son to rest, and a man I have nothing but full respect for, Michael sleep well now and take a good rest. No one will forget you or the others that have been lost. Michael im so down, yet I do not know you – never even knew your name, until now.

Sadly for you my hero was Terry MANHATTON Hatton of Res1cue [spelt correctly] who you will have know well.

NOW I am totally distressed at posting these dedications and being sad, I want to expose something to the US fire fighters, who will understand Jack full on if this is read by you.

I know Bad Boys and some non US gusy, I even know who the Bad Boy is, a higher respect I can never have than I do for him.

He stood as I watch on UK TV as the Pentagon collapsed, and hes that good he was left looking down, I yes I know what he said, ill tell you shall i?

Erm, there a whole there!

Of cause he is a ????? and on Res1cue in Washington, just a Manhattan was in New York, these guys and Squad teams are awesome, As brave as King Arthur and Richard from England, but funking hell guys im telling you we will loose these guys soon, I know it you know it, Your fire department cap with Res1cue sit in my PC at work, I draw from your bravery in every day I live.

I need and want to say you name, not in your life time, jus as I name the dead, I vowel, I PLASTER ever simgle code I write with your name, and dedicate them to you, just as I do so many others,

Thanks you buddy – please talk care, but I know care you don’t know, last pictures saw of you, your hair and skin was burnt on one side, all you said was it was a bit hot I had to turn around!!!!! That’s about right.

Come on friend you know it and ill say it you saved 7 lived that night in Washington, and got a medal from it – no one would have got them, not diss to anyone, but we all know it, 7 would be dead that night, all you did was get on with it.

Body getting, all survived!

Michael I dedicate this post to you, sir!